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And We’re Off!!

So it now begins…the official last hurrah. I took my first Estradiol pill this morning and therefore have begun our fourth frozen embryo transfer attempt. I am trying to remain calm and not stress too much. The past couple of weeks have been difficult as my moods have been all over the place and now I am concerned of the long-term effects of taking all of this estrogen and progesterone. I will need to discuss with my reproductive endocrinologist.
I am relieved and excited about this attempt for it will give my husband, daughter and I closure, one way or another. Of course I want to become pregnant from this and complete our family, but if not, I will know we did all we could mentally, physically and financially and we can then move on. That is what is calming me a bit more in this attempt…there is light at the end of the tunnel and the light is bright and positive, no matter what happens. It is not about already having a daughter, for whom I am beyond thankful. I will still need to mourn not having another child and not giving our daughter a sibling. I will make it all okay for me, for my daughter and my husband, for the three of us.
This is my focus and my serenity.

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Is Nothing Something?

My post title may be confusing but it should be! I had my sonohysterogram today (yeah, that was crampy and uncomfortable!) and everything looked clear and perfect. Of course this is good news! I have a history of fibroids and would not have wanted to go through their removal again. But, at the same time, it would have been a possible explanation as to why the last three embryo transfers did not work.
So, we will continue on. In another three weeks or so, we will have our last attempt with our fourth frozen embryo transfer. The only things I will do differently is eating more red meat and starting my prenatal vitamins earlier. I really don’t think there is a lot one can do to increase the chances. I eat healthy (most of the time) and walk regularly for exercise. I am normal weight for my height.
I am feeling positive and that is all I can do. My husband and I are looking for closure, either way. We have been at this since October of 2012 and we are tired. This is hard on a relationship and it has been hard on my body, physically and emotionally. We look forward to being pregnant and at the same time, we look forward to moving on with our wonderful daughter.

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Boycott Facebook!

Yes, I am having the same problem many infertiles have…Facebook is not our friend. Facebook is where our friends post adorable pics of their kids. I admit, I do too. I will post pics of my 3 year old, but it is those baby pics that really get me right now. I have one friend who will post pics daily of her baby. Now I am not one to judge (oh, hell, of course I am!)–but everyday. That seems a bit much, don’t you think? I mean, don’t get me wrong, this baby is adorable, but find a hobby, go for a walk, do something not on Facebook please! When I see these baby pics all I think is, that is supposed to be me from my last three (failed) frozen embryo transfers! And yet, it is not me.
That’s it! Why should I have to boycott Facebook? Why don’t these women who are so damn lucky to have babies take a break from their daily postings? Why do we, the infertiles, need to constantly be the ones making changes and altering our lives? We do it to our bodies with pills, injections, suppositories, tests, etc. Why can’t it be someone else for once? Don’t we deserve a break?
and i force myself to like every status... and try not to covet